First Journal
Journal Entry: Sun Mar 30, 2008, 4:49 AM
I've always wondered if the artist is a tortured soul, and if so, do all artists hate their work because it never seems to be good enough or be exactly what they see in their mind's eye?
I mostly throw my art away because I never like what I've done, it all feels cheap and sleezy and lacking that finishing touch.
That which I keep is usually not worth even throwing away, or in rare cases, such as the cat upon the invisible pillow, has some special meaning for me, such as *the cat is leaning on thin air, and it makes people feel uncomfortable to see it.
Why do I want to make people uncomfortable?
Is it cause I am uncomfortable in my own skin?
I don't even know.
I know that I am currently trying to figure out how not to kill myself. Eventhough I spent at least 5 years to figure our how to do it so there would be no body to bury... I'd have to somehow incinerate myself.
BUt enough about that, I'm sure most people would rather know about the art that I put up. I'll place some more simple pieces that I've done and some of the ones I actually like because I see what they are but others rarely do.
I'm not sane anymore, but then who is and why would you want to be?
That's all from me for now...
- Listening to: death game sounds
- Reading: my first Journal
- Watching: the letters skitter across the page
- Playing: nothing
- Eating: nothing
- Drinking: nother